Lydia's Social Anxiety

So, here's the thing. Lydia is a total ham when she is in the comfort of family. But in reality she has major social anxiety. I have know this for quite some time now. It affects her anywhere outside of the home. Even at church where she is around the same kids and adults every week.

It really hit me hard yesterday when about 10 kids and their moms came to the house. She has always been great at home when people come over. Sometimes when someone she doesn't know comes into the house she is shy at first but then when she gets warmed up she's fine. But yesterday, I could tell she was under stress about what all the kids were doing, getting into things, even the adults sitting on the piano bench seemed to bother her. She had to be right by me the whole time. She had little to no interest in the kids that were here. I mean, this is what I do, I watch kids in my house! You would think she would be used to it.

So, after thinking long and hard about it, I feel like I need to get her into some extra curricular activities. And possibly some play dates outside of the house. I am hoping that some social interaction out of her comfort zone will help open her up and let her know that it is okay to be out and around big groups of people without having anxiety over it. I fear that she will start school in the fall and hate it for that reason. So, now the question is DO I get her involved with something outside of the house and if so, what? Ballet? Soccer? She will be 5 in March. Any suggestions would be awesome.

Weekly Weigh In

Well, We had another weigh in today. I am down 2 more pounds. I really wanted to lose more but at least I didn't gain right. So, my goal is 2-3 lbs. a week. This week I worked out 5 times. Did really well on the water intake but still have some work to do to get up to the needed 8 - 8ounces of water a day goal. This week in addition to the water we are doing an increase in fiber. My exercise goal is to workout 6 days of cardio and 5 days of muscle toning. I feel much better since I have been eating 4-5 times a day, little meals and snacks. It seems to have cut down my want for the huge dinner at night by half! Here's to a successful week!

Alright, those of you who really know me, know that I have always struggled with my weight. So, here's the thing...

I just turned 30, that's a number I am struggling with. So, this year is going to be the defining year for me. The year I finally realize, that sitting on my butt worrying and complaining about the extra fat I carry around, isn't going to do anything but make me fatter and more depressed.

So, I decided to stop the vicious cycle, get up and start moving. I have reached that point in my life where getting healthy, losing weight, and feeling good is crucial. At this point, so many things in my life depend on it. Being happy about who I am not only in the mirror but having the confidence in myself that soo long ago disappeared. Not becoming a diabetic. Controlling my Polycystic Ovary Syndrome and ultimately being able to have more children. Not to mention being able to RUN and play with Lydia without feeling like I am going to die with in the first 30 seconds.

So, that being said, my husband and I recently purchased a heavy piece of workout equipment that we have actually been using. Although I refuse to "diet", I am being more mindful about what I put in my mouth and how much of it I stuff in there. The motivating moment for me was watching a marathon of the Biggest Loser a couple weeks ago. It sounds stupid, go ahead and laugh but I proceeded to go out and purchase a Biggest Loser scale and started tracking my weight.

Here it is, in one determined week I have lost 4.5 pounds. I shocked myself. But the proof is in the jeans people. It was like the begining of the rest of my life. A new me will eventually reveal itself out from under the suffocating fat rolls that now overcome my body. Disgusting, I know. But the truth isn't pretty.

And with this comes the accountability. Along with another awesome fat sufferer from my ward, I have formed a group of people that will meet every Wednesday and weigh in together. A support group if you will. Like fighting the fat together will totally make us stronger to hang in there. I know this all sounds cheesey but who the crap cares.

If anyone is interested in my personal progress I will be posting weekly pictures and weight lost. I need all the encouragment I can get.

And that's my life in a nutshell.